I am so mad right now. I need to be careful to not write back anything horrendous to the teacher, so therefore, I am going to rant about it instead.
We have internship during the school year. I am with the health department. I have been having a great internship in which I'm involved in numerous different sections of the department and get to see lots of ways we help patients. Awesome. I'm involved in numerous projects and see different things each week. Wonderful.
I have been getting 100s on all of my papers in this class.
Well, for this one paper I wrote how I was "bored" because the preceptor left me alone for half an hour (and really for more like 1.5 hours, but I was being nice) and I had nothing to do. That's because I had finished what they wanted me to do and were elsewhere. I didn't have my computer to work on anything else. What am I supposed to do, start roaming around the hallways or look through their desk to find something else? Umm... no.
Then we had a class where we talked about cultural competency. I got a freakin' 60% on this paper. WTF.
"I am concerned that you were "bored" when your preceptor was not available to you. Perhaps you need to be a little more assertive in finding things to do or explore. Have you had an opportunity to be involved in any of the clinics such as STD or immunization clinics? Your description of Professor ***'s "game" was interesting but [I] would have like[d] to see you explore a bit more of how the concept this [of] game was illustrating may be helpful to you in your practice."
Ok, for one, I have already been a part of the STD and immunization clinics. Did you NOT read my other papers? Another, me writing about how that game presented how people have difficulty communicating and how it can lead to stereotyping and racism should have been all I needed to describe what I got out of the lecture. Being racist and sexist = bad for pharmacy business. Apparently I have to spell it out and make it idiot-proof.
I really want to write a nasty email to this professor. I'm not the first person to get a bad review due to "not being involved" and truthfully writing about how I felt. Others get penalized for writing how they never get any experience with patients, and are told off because "rawr rawr rawr you should be with your patients and be more active in your internship rawr rawr rawr." Apparently I need to badger my preceptors to get them to have me do stuff, even though there is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO. I just want to point out her poor grammar and thump her on the forehead. I don't feel that I can say anything though because she will hold a grudge and that will affect my future grades.
We are encouraged to write about our feelings and experiences. And NOT WRITE ABOUT WHAT WE THINK THE TEACHERS WANT TO HEAR. I feel as though I have been lied to.